It’s amazing how you think you’ve moved past an issue and suddenly, as if ‘out of the blue’ you find yourself battling the dragons you thought you had made peace with.

To say I’m frustrated to still feel hurt by another’s actions would be an understatement, but, that’s the thing it doesn’t matter how much your logical mind or even your soul knows. Your emotions, well, they are their own entity, they need acknowledging, they need healing and to ignore them is slow and painful captivity.

It’s ok to admit that something or someone hurt you, it’s how we learn, it’s how we grow. It’s even ok if it “takes longer then it should”- now of course in saying this I am talking about our own perceptions of healing and time.

So often, we, as human beings aren’t honest with others and often ourselves about healing and how much time it can truly take.
We aren’t honest with others that even years later we can still feel pangs of sadness surrounding our past/ people or situations. When we feel this it is showing us there is still some healing to be done.

I’m here, right now to tell you that that’s normal!
That’s human
That shows that you’ve been showing up to life!

I’ve learnt this weird paradox in myself where opening up, showing every part of myself is only seen by a small few, probably smaller then you are picturing right now and yet I also have this urge to share my life, my journey and experiences with the world, because I know what it’s like to feel lost, to feel alone, to lose hope, to despair, to sink into depression, to be crippled by anxiety and I never want anyone, if I can help it, to feel that.

If by sharing me, I can shine some light, I can show someone it’s ok to feel anything, it’s ok to feel nothing, it’s ok to be exactly where you are!
If I can bring a shred of hope- then to quote one of Jenifer pastilofs favourite quotes “I have done love” and what better way to live this life is there than that?!

I am not perfect! Nor do I strive to be!
I strive to learn and grow and become the best version of myself!
I strive to help others do the same!
I strive to heal, to understand, to share compassion!

First and foremost we must do the things that bring us health, joy, wellness and love- that’s not selfish!
In doing so w can meet the right people to share our journeys with and we can acknowledge and appreciate those that are just passing through to teach us something about ourselves!

In short- I am here, I am healing, I am learning, I am growing, I am coming back to myself

You are not alone, you are loved and you are guided!

I hope I can be of service
Love always ~