There is this thing that occurs.
I have always said, for me, family is not about blood.
Family is friendship, love, being there for eachother through the shit times and still loving eachother through it all, even when you argue.
Sharing the same biology, for me, does not make you family.

So when someone I know thought that they were being kind (their heart was in the right place) by showing me my ‘dad’ on a live stream video, all it did was show me, there is no connection there anymore.
Not for me.
I feel sorry for him, yes, but that father-daughter love ..that’s no longer there and yes that makes me a little sad, of course it does.
ALL realtionships take constant work, energy and commitment-
no matter how much you love someone- relationships in all forms take nurturing.
So how can you expect to have a full and blooming garden if you have not been tending to even one blade of grass?

It’s a shame, but it’s a lesson.
You draw your boundries of what you accept in life and often – if not always – that starts with those closest to us.
I know one of my strengths and weaknesses is that I am reliable.
I am always there in an instant for those I love, but I shouldnt hold them to my expectations because of who I am because they are not me and that doesnt mean they dont love me.
They all have their own ways of showing it.

They say people come into your life for reasons, seasons or lifetimes and there are a few I hold dear and love that I hope fit into the latter-
I have learnt his phrase to be true though.

If you are one of my closest humans
Know that I love you and I plan to be a lifetime person for you
I hope to be the same for you
No matter the distance life places between us

Love always

G xo